Soul-searching?

Hello, everyone~!

Lately, I've been working on filling out applications for the internships that I hope to be accepted. It's called "entorii shi-to(entry sheet)" in Japan, and sending it to companies is the very first step for those who want to participate internship programs. Whether you're required to write this really relies on companies' manners. And I think the definition of internship in the US is not always suitable for the Japanese version because some companies in Japan have introduced the internship programs for letting students know more about companies by giving us seminars and chances to talk to the employees, not for working experience. I like both styles of internships because each of them has different positive and negative points.

As I've been thinking about what to write, I can't help but start thinking about who I am and the path I've taken so far. I personally don't think that I can see something objectively in the true sense of the term because the part of me that tries to be objective and the other part of me that doesn't will never be apart. And I still think so. However, I realize that the environment that embraces me allows me to have a kind of objective view about myself. The environment includes my parents, my friends, and the things I did. Needless to say, I've been greatly affected by my parents and my friends, and they always encourage me to go the way I am. At the same time, they make me realize I'm the only one and so is each of them.

The other thing I can think of in terms of the environment I've been grown up with is English. I hadn't noticed that English has had a big influence on me until I've got over with being worried about making mistakes, and improved enough to be able to write in English. I now feel like I have another room in my mind where I can visit quite casually when I feel like getting out of the room I've got already for Japanese. I'm supposed to have a switch button to decide where I'll be, and I guess I am. Sometimes it doesn't work that way, however. I feel the little part of me is left at the Japanese room when I think I stay at the English room, and vice versa. That's one of the reasons why I feel I'm a different person when I write in English, maybe?

Anyway, I like writing in English because it allows me to express myself differently and I've been able to feel something that left sealed in the Japanese room being turned into words, which is visible.

So...the conclusion is that I'm going to keep writing!

That's all for today.
See you soon!